Hi everyone,
I have been reading these posts for the last few days and I am so glad to have finally found a place where I feel others understand. It has only been 3 weeks since my tx at 18 weeks for trisomy 21. My dh and I chose not to confide in ANYBODY (family or friends) because of how other people would respond. I have been to a counselor a couple of times but I still feel like I am being judged. So at least here, I can honestly open up and share my feelings with all of you who have been through this horrible experience too. I'm grateful for this site.
I have had a hard time dealing with this tragedy. It takes almost nothing to set me into a downward spiral. I still find myself thinking "I should still be pregnant right now". I had a big setback when I got a call from the hospital last week telling me the "pictures" that were taken of my son were in. I had decided to hold and look at my son after the birth, and I'm glad I did. So I thought I would be able to handle the pictures too. I was mistaken. They seemed demeaning. The nurses dressed him in the outfit that they gave me for the keepsake and it was way too big. He looked ridiculous in it. It was also demeaning to have a picture of him holding the rattle they put in his hand. I would think it would be more bearable to have a picture of one's baby without the stupid clothes and just wrapped in the blanket. Anyway, the pictures have been hard to get out of my mind.
I tried to post in the main private forum but it asked for a password. I thought I had successfully completed the three steps. Anyway, if I'm doing something wrong, please let me know. Thanks.
I have been reading these posts for the last few days and I am so glad to have finally found a place where I feel others understand. It has only been 3 weeks since my tx at 18 weeks for trisomy 21. My dh and I chose not to confide in ANYBODY (family or friends) because of how other people would respond. I have been to a counselor a couple of times but I still feel like I am being judged. So at least here, I can honestly open up and share my feelings with all of you who have been through this horrible experience too. I'm grateful for this site.
I have had a hard time dealing with this tragedy. It takes almost nothing to set me into a downward spiral. I still find myself thinking "I should still be pregnant right now". I had a big setback when I got a call from the hospital last week telling me the "pictures" that were taken of my son were in. I had decided to hold and look at my son after the birth, and I'm glad I did. So I thought I would be able to handle the pictures too. I was mistaken. They seemed demeaning. The nurses dressed him in the outfit that they gave me for the keepsake and it was way too big. He looked ridiculous in it. It was also demeaning to have a picture of him holding the rattle they put in his hand. I would think it would be more bearable to have a picture of one's baby without the stupid clothes and just wrapped in the blanket. Anyway, the pictures have been hard to get out of my mind.
I tried to post in the main private forum but it asked for a password. I thought I had successfully completed the three steps. Anyway, if I'm doing something wrong, please let me know. Thanks.
